DAY 1. 16:00
So much I want to do in this life. So many thoughts run
through my head on a daily basis. I feel im supposed to be at
a 1000 places at once. I hate being confined. I keep a small
circle, so my thoughts are always rounded, I look up to the
lord , so my feet are always grounded.
DAY 2 11:17
Don’t know whats wrong
Sullen and reticent,
No Pain, no emotion
All i feel is retrogresssion
Indifferent towards everything and everyone
Keeping it cool calm and collected
Thoughts are however jaded
Its a phase and it’ll pass.
DAY 3 14:37
I must naturally have a lower need for human contact than
others, because I can happily spend my day by myself doing
whatever I want. Sometimes just the thought of having to
spend time with other people makes me mentally exhausted,
but I’ll always love being alone. Sometimes though I worry
that it can interfere with other things, and that it’ll hold me
back, at the end of the day we each have our qualities and
strengths, and we’re all different for a reason.
DAY 4 00:40
Cold Morning. Making moves. Years about to end.
Hand on my heart. 2011’s been a helluva year. Its been undulating since the beginning.
Happy its about to end. Steady progression.
Still doing me. Not letting the noise of other’s opinion drown my own inner voice.
God and Family. Everything else is secondary.
DAY 5 07:30
You wake up daily, with the thoughts of the many
responsibilities you are yet to face in life. The loving and
caring heart that you’ve had since childhood will not allow you
see the people you love suffer. You focus all your
strengths and resources into making life comfortable for
others even if it means stagnation in certain parts of your
own life. Giving more than you have and expecting nothing
but nothing in return. It has its weaknesses and its flaws, but
ass the good book says, love conquers all.
DAY 6 14:25
- What are the 3 things that make you go weak in your knees
- If I promise to fulfill one of your wishes, which would it be?
- If there is one thing you are absolutely passionate about, what is it?
- If there is one thing that makes you smile instantly, what is it?
- What do you think about a ‘Live-in’ relationship?
- Whats the most stupid thing you’ve ever done in a relationship?
- Are you the attention seeking type or do you like some space in a relationship?
- What part of a guy/girl do you look at 1st?
- Will you french kiss on the first kiss?
DAY 7 11:47
Told that I was supposed to fail
I wouldn’t amount to much of nothin’.
Yes, I prayThere was days I wondered if you really loved me.“But, baby, you feel pain”Mama would say when I felt like runnin’ away.I couldn’t take it.I, soon, hit ten, angry with all of the world.I couldn’t keep friends, just wishin’ you’d come back and seeMy difficult times being an adolescent.And like so many just like me, without a shoulder to lean.
Mama had no financial helpAnd thoughts of breakin’ the law came.Seen her tryna hold down two jobs was tearin’ up on me had a way (had a way).All my friends was gettin’ in itIt came time for me to get that dough.Wrong or right I had to go for what I know.
Lord I pray. Give me strength to forgive them and not all the I hate I got. Even though the pain of this was too heavy. Lord I pray. Show me all brothers growin’ up without a father had a turn with a day adolescent to a legacy. Lord I pray.)
From the knowledge I ain’t getGod, you gave me.And temptation was callin’ me, didn’t know which way to go
DAY 8 10:11
Should we go our own way - Francisco
I needed you - Chris Brown
She got it - 2 Pistols
I cant win - Usher
What i need - Deepside
Let me love you - Mario
What i know now - Claude kelly
I hate love - Claude Kelly
Lost without you - Robin Thicke
U Cant - One Chance
4 Minutes - Avant
Flying solo - Chris Brown
Icebox - Omarion
Maze - Attozio
I Choose You - Mario
Finish each day and be done with it, i hardly look back at what happened during the day cos its past and gone. Determined to be happy in whatever situation i may be. You think about your wrong doings and it defeats you before you do anything about it. Its all a learning process. Discipline your mind and make your own choices. With time you build an attitude towards the outside world and you gain confidence along the way. #dip_